Dear Lonely Lover

Dear lonely lover,

It is sad to know you are sad but some lessons are only learnt through tears. Know that the tears you shed now will not be wasted as you promise yourself to learn from it.The loneliness will eventually fade and you will be at peace with yourself.

XoXo,

Day 4 - The clarification

And so it was, it's just me. It was withered to something beyond repair.
When you've given all and even borrowed some and it still wasn't enough what do you do?
She and I are no longer trying to be an "us". We are on our own journeys to rediscover "the self".
It is a journey we cannot make holding hands.

It ended in the same manner it began. Abruptly. My sadness has turned into a deep sorrow.
What am I to do with the sorrow? How am I to knead this emotion that seems as  bottomless as the pit of eternity into becoming an overflowing fountain of inspiration. I miss her beyond reason.

I am petrified of the impending future because I'm clueless about what I'm suppose to do next. I've always been somebody's something for so long, I've forgotten how it is to just be with myself and not feel alone.

Ready For Surrender

Sitting on the paper thin edge of my sanity

My fear balancing me on the blade

I am about to surrender into the fall

Following the white rabbit

I will land somewhere, a parallel place

The usual familiars all redefined

All rules rewritten

As would I

My heart dismantled, expelled as a tear from her eyes

Exploding on soft lips laced with goodbye 

The far flung pieces journey to reunite in eyes clear of distortion

Without expectation

Only celebrations as her as she is

Those eyes

Her own

Day 1 - Limbo

Still in shock.The wheel of life turned.
Breathing is like taking a whiff of chili being fried in a pan
A full deep breath is impossible.
There's this beating in my chest that feels like a truck is about to rip through it.

Ex-lover

Even though we’ve gone our separate ways 

And ended our song of verses lacking rhyme

When retold I’d still begin the story like a fairy tale
Start with once upon a time

You made me believe in the miracle of love

Made me plan a forever like a gift from above

Right now we are really talking

My calls you still can’t take

But after time heals this aching

We’ll start another story of a different fate

One that rhymes, one with lyric
One that never ends

A story of how two lovers fell apart
But still found forever by being friends.